Remember in the LOTR's where Bilbo is talking to Frodo about feeling like he's not enough butter trying to cover too much toast? I can relate to that lately. Not really depression but sort of a vague feeling of doldrums that I can't shake. Maybe it's being 40 or maybe it's feeling too much responsibilty for the boys I work with lives. I feel edgy and have a sense of what I do doesn't matter. Like the hamster on the wheel.
What is this feeling? Spiritually I think i'm doing ok but that feels blah. I wouldn't think much except it's lasted since about May and i'm getting concerned. Is this what drives men to buy that red sports car and do other irresponsible, horrendous acts? Trying to grab meaning where it can't really be found? I've quit two boards for the most part and am posting a little less here, thinking my computer face time is out of whack.
Sorry to take up so much of your time. Some of you here I consider about as good a friend as I have.

Hm, not sure I could describe it more than how you did. It all pertains to a person's seperate situation. I went through a period of being too thin and lately it's the opposite where I don't feel useful to or for anything. I suppose the aging thing might have something to do with it. I feel it too sometimes, and people will rush to point out I'm only this age and so on, but I've always sort of put this frenzy of pressure on myself and consistently feel like I'm wasting and have wasted some of the best young years, or whatever. I'm not happy about teh birthday next month and not having the demo done because of $$$ issues, big example. The year seems to be going by way too fast too. But I believe you're doing stuff that matters, maybe it will take actually seeing or hearing some proof of it from someone at work for example, sometimes a little bit can go a long way.

I have too much pain and suffering lately to feel that way. I feel more like Frodo trying to carry the ring up Mount Doom.

But for what it's worth..
I believe what you are experiencing is what is referred too as "burn out". Been there, done that.

Ater awhile all the day to day struggling or "grind" starts to appear vain.. and you begin to stop being so concerned with it.. and the fire of motivation just fades.

I have found myself feeling that way usually when i have finally come out of some kind of all-consuming crisis and just need time to find me again. It's so much easier to either be up or down that to just be in that stretched out area in between.

Burnout could be it. After two years of giving here it does feel wearing. I feel selfish saying it but sometimes I need some me time.