I hate this sinful old man!!!!! God has been showing me that I need to be with Him far more, reading his word, prayer, etc. I've been spending time with Him in the mornings, and that has been a battle. Tonight, on a road trip, I listened to almost 2 hours of worship music. I practically had a worship service right there in the truck as I drove. Tears, hands in the air (well, one hand in the air, the other on the wheel...), singing in praise to Him, you get the idea.
Then, later tonight, I fall into a recurring sin that I knew darn well better than to commit again. I am SO angry at myself. I hate this!
I know I'll never be perfect in this life, but I am sick to death of every time I try to get closer to God, I get slammed with temptation. I know, its to be expected, Satan doesn't want me drawing closer to God, etc., etc., etc. Its still frustrating and maddening to walk right into sin, fully knowing better, time after time after time.
When you read this, would you just throw up a prayer for me? Thanks.