Wow, Thank God for his Grace in helping you hold up through this.

Still praying.

have and will continue to pray Angel.

What a process this has been and I admire you staying positive. More prayers coming for this.

Thank you so much all.. It means so much to keep this frame of mind and to know others who have pull with the Father through Christ are asking on our behalf.

I just want to praise and thank God, that in the midst of this..

1. There is no strife in my home, we have not turned against each other because we have this problem, we are more kind and supportive and have adopted even more of a servant's spirit toward one another, no giving upp or giving in to depression has occurred, we still cook, eat, laugh and hang out together, keep the same basic schedule as before and are maintaining as much everyday 'normalcy' in our home life as we can.

2. My son is healthy, obedient, keeping up with all his schoolwork, enjoying his life, friends and activities and is not affected in the sense that he has taken upp our adult worries/concerns because of what is happening, tho he is aware of it. He is still free to be a child in spite of what's on our plate.

3. We still have our family and friends, offerring their support and prayers and not treating us like we have some sort of disease or we want something from them. We are cared for by them and included in any and all plans for the holidays, etc.

I can't thank Him enough!!

This situation has caused me to think about so many others who are going through the same thing and do not have the same advantage we do or even those who know the Lord... how grinding down to the spirit this can be, how fear would like to take over, how the sense of failure compounds with every passing day and every rejection to a resume' or quote given, how it hurts the heart in a way few other things can to feel we cannot properly care for our family/children, to kick oneself for not having planned ahead should such a thing happen, to possibly have to re-group and find a new vocation when one has been doing something for a long time and never expected to do anything else. All of that stuff hurts, can make one afraid and is wearying. Then there's that whole aspect of having to take assistance and the fear, for me at least, to be heading toward a downward level..that is..how long will I need this? Will it become a way of life to the point I can never recover that independence?

You know, I've been homeless before but he has not and neither has my son. We are NOT going to go live under a bridge and wander aimlessly from park to park to soup kitchen to back under the bridge or some nasty abandoned building at night. It just isn't going to happen. I am NOT going to lose all my stuff. Still, that fear tries to taunt me.

I'd encourage all of us to be on the lookout for those in your sphere of influence who are going through the same/similar and be a friend, keep them lifted upp and do what you can...even simple things like a meal they don't have to cook, a word of encouragement or giving them your time just to vent over coffee, offerring to take the kidds for a little while (feed them!) help with a resume' or a networking connection or some repair they need to do around the house or on the car, etc.

It helps to maintain that feeling they are still a human being with worth and value, they have strength within and resources at their disposal if they look around and if they continue to put one foot in front of the other, they can rebound and recover.

Oh and in case anyone was wondering, a couple of opportunities are coming my way as well as far as making a little money, though what I'd make is a dropp in the bucket compared to what we are accustomed to and what we absolutely need to get out of this. But I am still grateful that every little bit counts.

Thanks for listening, encouraging and praying. I think I see more than a little light at the end of the tunnel.

Helping others.......that would be a good thing for me to do, it might just get me off my mind!

Angel, I see you being refined and truthfully, i'm a little in awe at what the Father is doing. Me, i'd probably be ranting and raving and asking what I did to deserve this.

He is sooooo good Brent, it just amazes me ...wooT!!

If you have bigg dreams, if He has bigg plans for us (and He does!!) we need to have and put to use monster-sized faith. Trials bring 'practice' if you will at exercising that faith and seeing of what quality it is..or is not.

God has NEVER failed me, not ONE of His promises have failed to come to pass, so in reality, I have nothing to lose and EVERYTHING to gain.

A few years ago, He basically told me that He was about to take me through a season of 'control issues' testing, lol. He said I'm letting you know ahead of time so you know when stuff comes upp, you have the choice to get bound upp in your reaction to things OR , you can roll with it and trust Me.

Before that, I was very much...always trying to figure Him out, like.. what is He upp to, what is the purpose of this and if *I* can see the end result, THEN, I'll cooperate.

He's like..., um, there REALLY isn't time for all that and btw, I'm God, so you either trust me .....or you don't.

Since then I have lost what I thought were good friends but have come to see they were not friends and also got a good lesson in why they left. It's good to know who will stand by you and who can't for whatever reason and yet find comfort in that. That sort of thing used to make me very cynical or hurt my feelings but now, I enter the rest of the Lord, knowing He is doing His thing to make His will come to pass.

I also keep this world and this life in a healthy perspective. It's something we have to deal with and maintain but it is not the main reason we are here. It will never satisfy us since God set eternity in our hearts. More and more, my heart's desire is for all people to know Him for themselves, to see how real and good He is and to recognize Him as God and Saviour. Whatever that will turn into in an action sense, I am open to and will continue to seek it.

I think that this is happening to us partly to discourage that desire and turn it into nothing, to kill it before it can get started. I'm putting the enemy on notice that he can't stopp me, no matter how many thousands of houses he tries to kick me out of!! He's gonna have to bring more than this to put a stopp to what God is doing in and through me.

I know that sounds cocky, but really, even though it looks like *I'm* on the mat, I'm just waiting for him to say uncle and slink away, to come try something else some other day.... if he thinks he can. LOL!!!!

Remember kiddz, ALL of the promises in the Bible are YES and Amen in Christ.

Awesome.

Hey Angel......your last couple of posts here on this thread......thanks for them. Thanks for sharing......and having the courage to open up. Thank you.

You three are in my prayers......especially you Angel.